Boredom

Hey everyone, this be my first blog ever in the history of me. I have always been lousy at keeping a journal in the past but I figured now is the time to give this a try. K, I'll admit, I got this wild hair up my ass wanting to spend the time to type. Just like in the day when I got bored I would break out pen and paper and start writing poetry to help fill the void. So here goes, my nights without my daughter is filled with utter boredom, as well as my days. I lost my job 9 months ago due to all the stress and anxiety caused by my bitter divorce. And ya know, the worst part wasn't the divorce itself, but the fact that my ex in spite of me is preventing our daughter from sharing equally in our care. I see it has her way of milking me for as much as she can. And sad part is, my daughter is the one that has to suffer. Well, hope someday soon that the tables will turn and I will be allowed to parent my child as I see fit without being ordered around like some damn lapdog. After all, we share joint physical and legal custody. So what does she bark orders? And she wonders why I meet her with major resistance. I don't respond to orders. I respond to requests. But, I guess I'm just that unlucky. I sure could use some good luck to come my way soon.

Update: Well, after over a year now, my ex has finally come to her senses on most things when it comes to raising our daughter. She has been more than willing to help with things as well as more accomodating (sp) when it comes to spending time with my daughter. Just glad things have come around.